Tuesday, July 17, 2007
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posted at 9:49 AM
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
I'm not sad.
I'm not sad
I'm not sad.
So there.
But am I unaffected? I can't say I'm not. It's expected and all, but still.. Could it be that even that first part was a lie? Again, I can't tell my feelings apart. Guess at one time, I have been apathetic for too long. Have I forgotten how to feel? Being emo does that to you..
How long since I stopped and just soak in the immense joy of salvation? When was the last time I put aside the cares of this world and basked in the love of Jesus Christ? I'm so tired...
Finally got my haircut! Hahaz.. Well, it's remained pretty much the same. Just that my hair is thinned out and the top is cut shorter so it doesn't look like a bowl anymore. My bushy back has also been cleared, but not all gone! Just layered I guess.
Bottomline: I look like a butch now la. =.=
Am I a nuisance to you? I just don't want to drift further away than I already am. Sorry..
posted at 11:59 PM
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Monday, March 12, 2007
These past three days have been filled with excitement!
Haha.. Ok. Maybe that heading might not have excited you very much. I'll go straight to the point then:
Saturday:
The Wild Goose Race! Many people confused it with a wild goose CHASE which is quite annoying. Ahh but who cares..
Anyway, we sort of ran around singapore looking for various clues to complete the questions then head towards the next destination. The group was given $20 per head since we're not allowed to use our own money or EZlink card. Ours recieved $320. I'll leave you to do the math -.-
It was great to be able to work together as a team in moving around and solving questions. I'm sure that somehow, each of us learned a valuable lesson from this trip, one way or another. Spending 2hrs on lunch was kinda cool as well=P
Sunday:
Had choir rehearsals in the afternoon. We're rehearsing for the Youth Gospel Night in April! Er.. I forgot which date in April but.. it's in April! Haha.. Tell if if you want to go ok? Even if you don't, I'm gonna ask you anyway!
Managed to smoothen out some rough edges in our various parts and I'm sure with God's help, we'll be able to do it well! We even came up with some cool variations for a song! Wowee.. So exciting..
The 143rd Sunday School Anniversary was held in the evening. It's a great way to remember how God brought us, as an assembly, through all these years. With the various items being put up, I sure hope God was happy with it=)
Monday:
Monday blues.. Went to work. Nothing very different except that Wesley took leave and a colleague came back from a week long break. Back to the tiring lunch crowd. The day would probably have continued drearily if not for this sms from Nathanael at 3:20:
"Eh boy.. Bangang leh. Matt, Merv, amos, me and wesley at sentosa.. shiok ah.. Haha.."
Honestly, first thought: What in the world is Wesley doing there when he took leave to help the BB?!
Turns out he was helping the BB. At Sentosa=.=
Quickly finished my shift and headed down there too. There was a nice sun in the sky and I really did not want to miss the chance of a sunburn=P
I still didn't get my sunburn. I didn't get to kayak. I didn't even got to ride the luge. Just a simple dip in the salty sea. At least I got to meet up with the guys..
After sentosa, Matt and Merv went for choir practice. We met up with Con and Cherie, who happened to be at sentosa but on another part of the stinking island, and ate dinner together.
Laughter, of course, was inevitable with such a group gathered. Hahaz..
Played LAN after dinner till about 10:30. Reached home around 11:15. *Sigh* There's still work tomorrow. I think I'm going to quit soon. Getting real tiring.
posted at 11:58 PM
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Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Today, not say very good day, also not say very bad day. I guess it's those one of those days where nothing seems to be going your way at one moment, and then some unexpected pleasant thing happens at the other.
Let's start from the beginning:
-Managed to wake up early despite just 5hrs of sleep! =)
-Couldn't log on to the bloody JAE/IS thingy to check my posting results yet. =(
-Breakfast meeting only got 8 people. Easy! =)
-Mom sms-ed to tell me that I was posted to TP and not SAJC. =(
-Mood picked up when I had egg sandwich for breakfast! =)
-Then drooped way down low again when Wesley told me he didn't make it too Sports and Wellness. =(
-Knocked off on time and rushed back to get a haircut! =)
-Hairdresser was closed. =(
-Had a nice shower, put on nice clothes, and set off for SAJC to appeal! =)
-Passed by a friend on the way there who told me that the whole bloody school was evacuated due to tremors. =(
-Met Mr Yee near the JC! ( He's a real passionate old-boy. Obsessed?? =P ) =)
-Told me there was no one in the JC. =(
-Told me again that the general office might be open! =)
-Couldn't find an entrance into the JC. =(
-Managed to go in through the "sianz"ingly far Main Gate! =)
-Left without handing in the appeal form as they were closing already. =(
It was after all these events that somehow, I knew that maybe God didn't want me to go to SAJC. Maybe it's part of His perfect plan that I should go somewhere else and perhaps help start a work there? It still is hard for me to accept that I probably would not carry on the "Saint" journey. Almost heartbreaking. Yet, if God really doesn't want me to go there, then there is absolutely nothing I can do to enter even if I hand in a hundred appeal forms.
Sorry guys. Go on without me. I'll see you around.. Somehow..
Oh. The day didn't end like this =( . Haha..
-I had an amazing time talking to God at the prayer meeting and wonderful fellowship with fellow brothers and sisters in Christ.=)
Are we meant to be?
posted at 11:46 PM
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Monday, March 05, 2007
Work, work, work..
That's pretty much the first thing that comes to my mind when I try to strike up conversations or even start this post. It seems work has kicked up a whole new level of boredom in my already pathetically boring life. Occassionally, I do get a few decent smiles, heartfelt "thanks" and a generous tip which can really make my day. Other times, it's the demanding customers and the cheapskate goons that really make me wonder why I asked for the job.
But hey, I should look on the bright side huh? At least I get paid for the boredom=)
Unlike school=(
Will be starting school soon. Who knows where I'll end up? Is SAJC still a fat hope? Can I even end up in Communications and Media Management at TP? Only God knows, I guess. Just God, and the people who posted me to where I'm going to end up for the next 2-3years of my life.
-.- Wow. The excitment is really killing me. -.-
Maybe I should get a haircut tomorrow. The hair I got on isn't really going to impress the principal should I have to appeal for SAJC. Darn. So little time here and there. Wouldn't be able to check my results tomorrow morning. Gotta have to do it tonight.
Sheesh..
Am I still being deluded by my feelings? I really don't know. All I know is that somehow, there's this missing piece inside.
Yet, should there be a missing piece?
posted at 11:18 PM
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Thursday, February 22, 2007
I think I bought more clothes this month than I usually do in half a year. Maybe even a whole year.
Been using the excuse of the "new year" to go out and look at stuff. The urge would then creep in to buy it and add it to my collection of moth-infested clothes.
I'm just kidding. They're not moth-infested. -_-
Anyway, bought a few new shirts even after the lunar new year. My parents happened to be free today and we went shopping together. Great time of much needed bonding. Not that it's in that state of falling apart or anything but hey, never hurts right?
Actually, I guess I was the one that needed that bonding time. Been gradually losing contact with my family members as I spend more and more time on the computer. There were even days where I spoke less than fifty words to my family.
I'm also losing contact with my Father. Days are passing where I hardly think about Him or read His word. I see how each day He tries to bring me back into His arms by putting me in situations I cannot handle bt myself. Yet this force keeps me from reaching out to Him. Is this the "pride of life" that I've been learning about for so long?
This is probably what Hell is like; although just a small shadow of it I'm sure. Not having God in their lives alone is already driving people mad to seek out a greater being. God was still "dwelling" on Earth. Imagine the total separation of God's Spirit from one's soul. The agony could probably be the "fire" in Hell.
That's just my opinion. =P
I want to come back to You, Lord. Would You recieve me again, after all the times I turned from You?
posted at 12:51 AM
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Monday, February 12, 2007
What am I to do?
I got a relatively good score for my O levels
But not good enough to land me where I want to be.
Neither here nor there
Is this all a test of faith?
Is that poem I wrote so long ago going to come true?
I was once taught that God will only choose to show His will to the people who will be willing to carry it out, no matter what it is.
Am I prepared to let Him work in me? No matter the cost?
Well if I live or die,
My only cry will be:
"Jesus in me. Praise the Lord!"
Don't take it literally. I'm just saying that whatever the outcome of the appeal, I have a Hope on high. At the end of the day, it's not going to matter which JC I go to, or even how high a position I get to in life. I'm just concerned that when I see my Saviour face to face, will He give me a pat on the head and say: "Well done, good and faithful servant."? Or would He be disappointed at my life on earth?
What do You want me to do?
posted at 11:50 PM
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