Friday, August 25, 2006
I'm soooo sorry.. The Mars thing was all just a FREAKIN' HOAX!! ARGH!! I'm soo dumb can. Can even fall for this kinda thing..
Turns out this message is pretty much sent every year around this time. Just because it happened in 2003,[I saw that one=) ] Some dumbshits think it will happen again this year. And I'm worse than a dumbshit for believing -.-"
ARGH!!! To think I had such high hopes..
...So crushed...
posted at 11:55 PM
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Ahh..! English prelims are over. Yesterday was Paper1 and today Paper2. Sian liao.. Screwed up my Paper 2 already. How..? Wonder how people get A2 for English in their O levels. With the results I see in class during usual assignments, I don't see how that is possible, even with the best work. Are we really that crappy? hahaz..
Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August. It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye. This will cultimate on Aug 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of Earth. Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am! It will look like The Earth has 2 Moons. Don't Miss it..!! The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287..
Got this in an email. Don't know how true is it but I'm not taking any chances. Going to stay up for it. No one alive today is going to see it ever again.
Don't know what else to blog about now. So bored..
Stupid Bleach. Still haven't upload episode94..
posted at 8:22 PM
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases.
His mercies never come to an end:
They are new every morning,
New EVERY morning.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God,
Great is Thy faithfulness..
I guess it is only quite recent that this little song made an impact on me. Was asked to lead in singing during yesterday's meeting at Uncle Eric's house. With the many trials that are in my life at this time, it is really comforting to know that God is always there right beside me. I know it is kinda cliche lah.. But I really don't know how much more I can emphasize this point.
Yesterday was really fun at Uncle Eric's house. Really enjoy hearing Uncle Eric speak=P He would often talk about his army days then make it even more interesting by talking about his childhood. Hahaz.. Had chocolate fudge for desert too. We were laughing about the chocolate fudge being John Mark! Suddenly, Amos cut in and said:
"Can you please stop laughing at him?! He was chopped up into so many pieces........."
At this time, all of us just started laughing again. Wahaha.. Feel so evil.
After that, some of us went out to the nearby playground to play around. Eventually, we moved on to estate catching and ran all over the place.
Somehow, when it was time to go home, Amos, RenAn, Wesley and Shawn managed to squeeze into my dad's car with my family together with some speakers. That is like, 8 people with equipment! I'll leave you to imagine how we did it..
School starts tomorrow again. *sigh* Hope can concentrate on the lessons.
Don't worry about me yea?
posted at 10:01 PM
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Friday, August 18, 2006
Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you thru another day
Don't worry. I'm not the emo boy I was a few days ago. This song just came to my mind and I guess the words were rather meaningful. Not even I know who I really am. Only God knows me from the inside out. That is why I should learn to trust Him for He knows what is best for me, even if I do not like it at first.
Really looking forward to the weekends. (Which happens to start tomorrow?) That's when I can really take a break from the bustling school life and retreat into God's loving arms together with fellow brothers and sisters. With all the schoolwork coming in, can I still do my job as the "recycle bin"? Haha..
Sometimes I think back and ask: Why is it so stressful these days? Where are the times when we were so carefree?
God answered me with a couple of verses from the His Word:
-Ecclesiastes 7:10 Do not say,"Why were the old days better than these?" For it is not wise to ask such questions.
-Ecclesiastes 7:14 When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other.
May anyone who is reading this now be encouraged by this as well.
And I'm still the same "recycle bin". Almost anything can be 'sent' here. Don't worry about it leaking out to other computers. I'm "Norton Protected too". Hahaz..
posted at 11:17 PM
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
This week was rather heavy. Heavy as in exhausting, not like I suddenly put on weight or anything -.- Getting really tired so easily these days. Is it really due to school? Or do I have to sleep earlier than I already do? I don't know what's going on but it isn't helping in my walk with God. Finding excuses seem so easy now. So easy that I'm afraid that sometimes I think I might lose sight of Him altogether.
Had my English O level Oral yesterday. I hope I did well. Darren managed to see abit of my score when he sat down after me
"I think you got 13 for conversation."
I was like, so pathetic? How am I going to scare a distinction for my English with such a low mark? ARGH.. I really need that A1..
Save me, God..
posted at 10:21 PM
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
My dreams are lost, I care no more;
My aspirations flown away;
The hopes I had thrown out the door.
Fear and loss have come to stay.
How could I even dare to dream
That I would one day study there?
That I would dwell with fellow Saints
With them, our joys and sorrows share?
Across the bridge, that fair, bright land.
To gaze over, it causes such hurt.
Across the river, it's frame so grand.
Can I ever face myself again?
Take me into Your embrace.
Hold me tight and let me see
Your love and power. Oh, take me away,
Away from the thoughts of SAJC...
Was feeling kind of emo the whole day and that's probably why I got that splitting headache. Many things now seem to be crashing on top of me. Why is this happening? Hadn't I already woken up to the O level realisation a long time ago?
The fact is this: I did not get any bonus points deducted for my O levels in terms of CCA. That's right. I FAILED. All my participation in various competitions in Track and Field have been declared void. The CCA which I happily am in now(Saints for Christ), is not counted as my main CCA. All because of this LEAPS programme that we were supposed to be briefed on when we were Sec1.
Just one problem.
We were NEVER briefed on this in Sec1. The HOD of CCA claims he did when we all heard it only this year in Sec4. Ridiculous huh? That's why I'll never get to SAJC now. Is it really God's plan for me to go to a polytechnic?
What do You want me to do, Lord?
Don't worry, Brandon. Just kick their butts next year..
posted at 10:44 PM
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Monday, August 14, 2006
Changed a new blogskin today, as you can see when you enter. Received some comments as to how laggy my blog is on their computers. And I thought MY computer was bad enough.. Not suaning anyone here. Hehex.. Hope this would be enough for them.
Guess I should have listened to my mother and many others around me at the starting of this year. Now I have to continue taking chinese for the rest of this year. If you havne't caught on to what I'm saying: I am retaking my O level Chinese. You heard(read) right. I am going to retake it due to the fact that I might be using it in my O levels. And if I do, I wouldn't want a C5 to be in my L1R5 now, would I?
Talked with a fellow brother just after we got our results. I guess he was more more devastated than I thought, even though it's not in his character to show it. I guess I would too, putting in more than 100% in this only to see a crappy grade in return. And as though the world was mocking you, others who slacked quite alot get the grades they want. Despite this, he was able to send encouragements that I could feel in my heart even through something as simple as an SMS. Thank God for you, bro..
How long has it been since you talked with the Lord?
And told Him your heart's hidden secrets?
How long since you prayed?
How long since you stayed
On your knees till the light shone through?
How long has it been since your mind felt at ease?
How long since your heart knew no burden?
Can you call Him your friend?
How long has it been
Since you knew that He cared for you?
God bless you, friend...
posted at 9:50 PM
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
Didn't do anything much today. Yet, it caused me to think alot about my recent attitudes and my spiritual walk.
My unhappiness from last night did not go away in the morning. There was a plan for an outing to Sentosa today. When my mom mentioned it to my dad, the answer was a flat NO. That part, I was a little sour about. The next part was what hit the top:
"Everyday go out still not enough arh?"
I spent the rest of the evening at Sherman's house with a cold and heavy attitude. I didn't care if I was rude to the adults or anyone else. Somehow, my actions were subtle enough for them not to detect anything much from me.
The next day would be better..
Woke up with the same bitter feeling from yesterday. It's one of those feelings where you wish you could just sleep the whole day and not do anything. When the venue was changed to East Coast Park, I plucked up the courage to ask my mom if I could go.
"No. We're having lunch with your father."
My heart sank. That's it, no more outing.
Dad came and took us to a Japanese restaurant. My mood did lift a little. That's when I realised why dad wouldn't let me go. He had this planning this family lunch a long time and couldn't have it previously because of his busy schedule. That was when all bitter feelings dispersed and I was left on the verge of breaking down in tears.
How could I have thought all those bad thoughts? How could I have been so blind?
Even though I didn't go out after that, I thanked God for this day. Thank God for showing me that there is usually a better plan if I just wait and see. Many times, the flesh just wants to have things the way they want, usually ending up choosing the way that would leave us at a disadvantage. This lesson is one I have learned many times. Today however, is when I do my practical test..
posted at 10:02 PM
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Happy Birthday Wesley!
Happy Birthday Melodie!
Happy Birthday Grace!
Happy Birthday Sherman!
Happy Birthday Joan!
Happy Birthday Singapore!!
(Please forgive me if I forgot your birthday =P )
Whoa.. Many many birthdays today. These people are really blessed to have their birthdays together with Singapore; always have public holiday on their birthday. Hmph..
Had a great time yesterday. After updating yesterday, I went down to Bugis, met up with Matt, Nat and Amos to get a present for Wesley. Couldn't find the Gundam model we wanted: XGMF-X20A Strike Freedom.. *sigh* That would have been a present that would totally own. So we had to settle for the Wing Gundam Custom. It still rocks lah..
After that, we went down to Marina South. We stopped at Marina Bay MRT and saw that the bus stop was super crowded. So we decided to walk there and see if it's very far or not. 2 min after we left the bus stop, the bus passed right in front of us -.- . So we just went to the next bus stop and waited.
That's when the fun starts. With boredom as our motivation and an ulu bus stop as our playground, we went on to do stupid stuff like climbing the pole, trying to climb to the roof of the bus stop, staging fights to fool cars that pass by, etc. The funny part was when Amos was "beating up" Nathanael. A truck horned actually thought it was real and horned at us! We were practically rolling with laughter! Then the bus came. Aww..
We met up with them at the place and played DOTA and CS for awhile. After that came dinner. Steamboat! It was sooo goood...! Wow.. At that point of time, we didn't care if we had used the chopsticks for raw food to eat or not. All we could think of was, EAT!
After dinner, some of us went down to the Esplanade. There, we just lazed around and took some pictures. We played a variation of Murderer too. Guess I people really don't like me =( I'm usually the first to die. Oh well, sad life.. Hahaz.. But it really is tricky to find the murderer. People whom you do not expect at all turn up to be the ultimate serial killers. Hahaz..
It really was a fun night. Reached home at about 0215. Going out again tonight. Sherman's house this time. Thinking of the horrors we're going to do to the birthday boy.. Hehe..
posted at 3:48 PM
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Monday, August 07, 2006
Aw crap.. Actually got alot of things to say. But now that I switched on my com, it all went blank.
The concert yesterday was cool. They play so nice. Even for the funny parts when the reed went "squeak!" on accident. It was great really. So nice to see St Andrew's Village united like that. I guess the person with the most limelight had to be the bandmaster. Oh well.. Guess he deserves many many credit bah..
Blank liao.. No more.. Tomorrow going to get Wesley present. *sigh* What to get for Melodie? We'll see tomorrow I guess..
One family unbroken, we join with one acclaim: One Heart, One Voice uplifting to glorify Thy Name.
posted at 10:41 PM
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
Pretty much wasted the day. As usual.
Left my computer on to download something when I went out with my family for lunch. Ended up with us going to Parkway Parade to look for a pair of slippers for my dad. Turns out his current pair was "falling apart". Probably 'cos he wears it everyday..
Anyway, saw the [Dead Man's Chest] soundtrack and was so tempted to buy it. If not for the fact that I didn't have enough money with me, I'd be listening to it now while typing this entry. *sigh* Guess It's not God's will for me to buy it. Think I'm going to freeload it from my friend after he buys it. Freeloading from the [FFL].. Thats the ultimate. Wahaha=P
Something pretty much struck my heart today at YP. Uncle David talked to us about 3 "conditions" at YP. 2 of them I don't have much problems with. The other? Well... Those who attended this afternoon and read a previous post of mine will know...
Training today was quite fun. Although, I got distracted many many, plus super off form. *sigh* Can we face the teams from other assemblies? I know the main thing is to have good fellowship with other churches. But still, we should still be of a certain standard right? I'm not really referring to the team. They played well.
Maybe it's just me..
Had a good dinner today too. Frog porridge! Wow.. Jealous right? It was real good. Don't really get the chance to eat it much. Not because it's too far or anything. the dinner today cost like $80? for 2 families that is. It was gooooooood.. Haha..
Going to SAV band concert tomorrow. Guess it's going to be good. Considering that SASMB is one of the top3 bands in SYF and SAJC is one of the top2 for JC category. OWNAGE....!
posted at 11:14 PM
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
[ I'll be Your witness in the silences when words are not enough ]
Those are part of the lyrics to the song [Testify to Love]. Am I being one? Am I testifying to the love of Christ by the things I do? I guess that is a question that I should constantly be pondering over.
Today was another day at school. Pretty normal and average if not for the fact that we had our CCA phototaking today. Almost everyone was walking around the place, checking with each other whether our hair's in place; ties tied properly, etc.. Just after us was the Athletics team. As I looked at them after our photo was taken, I thought to myself:
Could I have been standing there with the team as well?
After that, Memories of when I had been in Athletics came flooding back. Including the time when I quit it because I was so "un-committed" to the trainings. I guess this is one issue of my life that I have not been able to get right. Just praying for God to continue changing me.
Thanks for the encouragements. May God bless you too..
p.s. If you want the song I mentioned earlier, just feel free to ask from me. It really is a nice song. =)
posted at 9:52 PM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
What's wrong with me? Am I losing God in my life? Why do I find myself wanting more than just God? Is this a phase or is it my fault?
Lately, I find the ghost my "old man" coming back to haunt me once more. Things I had resolved to put aside have come back to my mind. I start to curse and swear under my breath; gambling now seems so difficult to refuse. Have the evils of the class taken a hold of me again? Am I to go back to my old ways, living the sinful life I once did without any regard for the One who saved me?
Combined Humanities today. I know I am totally going to flunk my social studies. Upon handing up my paper, I see other's test papers. They write for 2 or 3 pages. Mine was 3/4 of a page =P I'm soooo screwed. At least I studied geography. But my answers for that were quite short too. Will I score?
Can't wait for the weekends to come again. It is only when I'm with my friends at church that I feel the best. Yet, What am I going to Youth and Sunday School for? Is it really to study God's Word or just to be with friends? Nowadays, even I won't believe myself if I said the former. ARGH... Why am I so distant?
To think I said 3SE'05 was better than 2A'04.. I miss them..
I hate 4SE'o6...
posted at 8:15 PM
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