Thursday, February 22, 2007
I think I bought more clothes this month than I usually do in half a year. Maybe even a whole year.
Been using the excuse of the "new year" to go out and look at stuff. The urge would then creep in to buy it and add it to my collection of moth-infested clothes.
I'm just kidding. They're not moth-infested. -_-
Anyway, bought a few new shirts even after the lunar new year. My parents happened to be free today and we went shopping together. Great time of much needed bonding. Not that it's in that state of falling apart or anything but hey, never hurts right?
Actually, I guess I was the one that needed that bonding time. Been gradually losing contact with my family members as I spend more and more time on the computer. There were even days where I spoke less than fifty words to my family.
I'm also losing contact with my Father. Days are passing where I hardly think about Him or read His word. I see how each day He tries to bring me back into His arms by putting me in situations I cannot handle bt myself. Yet this force keeps me from reaching out to Him. Is this the "pride of life" that I've been learning about for so long?
This is probably what Hell is like; although just a small shadow of it I'm sure. Not having God in their lives alone is already driving people mad to seek out a greater being. God was still "dwelling" on Earth. Imagine the total separation of God's Spirit from one's soul. The agony could probably be the "fire" in Hell.
That's just my opinion. =P
I want to come back to You, Lord. Would You recieve me again, after all the times I turned from You?
posted at 12:51 AM
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Monday, February 12, 2007
What am I to do?
I got a relatively good score for my O levels
But not good enough to land me where I want to be.
Neither here nor there
Is this all a test of faith?
Is that poem I wrote so long ago going to come true?
I was once taught that God will only choose to show His will to the people who will be willing to carry it out, no matter what it is.
Am I prepared to let Him work in me? No matter the cost?
Well if I live or die,
My only cry will be:
"Jesus in me. Praise the Lord!"
Don't take it literally. I'm just saying that whatever the outcome of the appeal, I have a Hope on high. At the end of the day, it's not going to matter which JC I go to, or even how high a position I get to in life. I'm just concerned that when I see my Saviour face to face, will He give me a pat on the head and say: "Well done, good and faithful servant."? Or would He be disappointed at my life on earth?
What do You want me to do?
posted at 11:50 PM
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Thursday, February 08, 2007
Wow.
The day has finally come.
The O level results are being released tomorrow.
Nothing much I plan to do about it now. Just wait and see how it goes tomorrow.
Gotta worry about the friday lunch crowd first.
Yes. I am working tomorrow before collecting my results.
bleahs..
posted at 8:59 PM
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
1 Peter 5:11- To Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.
This was one of the verses considered for tonight's prayer meeting. It may just be a short, 10-word, sentence but man does it hold so much weight..! This verse essentially, or how I see it, talks about submission.
Yes. Total submission.
When the glory is His, it means that none of it is yours. Simple as that. When you are bought with His blood, you belong to Him. Everything you do has the brand of "Jesus Christ" on it. So if something good is done (I guess helping some old granny cross the road counts..), the glory goes to God. If it's something bad, the name of the Lord is shamed along with your sorry face..
Dominion means He has control over everything. The way nature goes; the way the earth rotates; the way a sunset can touch you.EVERYTHING. Guess God never has the trouble of things not going the way He planned it. This is the part that encourages me most as I know He is in control over it all and He would never give us a situation we cannot handle.
Work was busier than usual. Got tired out so quickly. And I was only cutting cakes la.. Can't imagine the work of the food runners and order-takers.( Order-takers? =P )
Maybe it's just my lack of rest these days. Been running around alot and not spending enough time with God and my family. There's still so many things to do this week.. Haiz.. So burned out. Longing for that eternal rest..
3 more days..
posted at 11:25 PM
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Monday, February 05, 2007
Sometimes, things don't turn out the way we think it would. Take today for instance: no one would expect some old lady to order 16 slices of different cheesecakes! And I felt soo bad when I ruined one slice by accident. Ended up buying that slice for myself=( I can only thank God that she did not ask for the cakes to be packed in separate boxes.
So anyway, I learned and relearned many times that it's always important to thank God for whatever happens, 'cause when you really think about it, the alternative could be so much worse. Just like life as a Christian in the world: It's tough, tiring and crappy. Yet when you think of the alternative, which is Hell, one would even thank God for the tough, tiring and crappy trials faced in the world. So, "in everything, give thanks. For this is the Will of God for you who are in Christ Jesus.".
Thought of updating about today but that would make this sound like a personal diary so I'll spare you the ranting=P
You probably wouldn't want to hear about it anyway.
.Results coming out in 4days time.
posted at 11:56 PM
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