Thursday, February 22, 2007
I think I bought more clothes this month than I usually do in half a year. Maybe even a whole year.
Been using the excuse of the "new year" to go out and look at stuff. The urge would then creep in to buy it and add it to my collection of moth-infested clothes.
I'm just kidding. They're not moth-infested. -_-
Anyway, bought a few new shirts even after the lunar new year. My parents happened to be free today and we went shopping together. Great time of much needed bonding. Not that it's in that state of falling apart or anything but hey, never hurts right?
Actually, I guess I was the one that needed that bonding time. Been gradually losing contact with my family members as I spend more and more time on the computer. There were even days where I spoke less than fifty words to my family.
I'm also losing contact with my Father. Days are passing where I hardly think about Him or read His word. I see how each day He tries to bring me back into His arms by putting me in situations I cannot handle bt myself. Yet this force keeps me from reaching out to Him. Is this the "pride of life" that I've been learning about for so long?
This is probably what Hell is like; although just a small shadow of it I'm sure. Not having God in their lives alone is already driving people mad to seek out a greater being. God was still "dwelling" on Earth. Imagine the total separation of God's Spirit from one's soul. The agony could probably be the "fire" in Hell.
That's just my opinion. =P
I want to come back to You, Lord. Would You recieve me again, after all the times I turned from You?
posted at 12:51 AM
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